Health and mortality

I'm working with my doctor on cholesterol. I've got too much. There's good and bad cholesterol. Three months ago, my good cholesterol was up, but so was the bad. Now, the bad cholesterol is down, but so is the good. Gotta figure out how to get the bad down, good up. I strongly suspect that what I eat has a huge impact on both.

And I need to exercise more. Don't know where these extra pounds came from, I didn't have them 5 years ago. Truth is, I can't take my body or health for granted. I'm getting older, I have risk signs for heart attacks, and someday there will be dying. The healthier I can be right now, the better off I'll be in the long run.

Mortality is a frightening thing to contemplate. Particularly for the single person. Who is somewhat disconnected from her family. Who will care when I'm sick? Who will take care of me? And now that I'm no longer convinced of the afterlife/an afterlife, what we do now here with THIS life matters so much more.

Eat better, exercise more. That's what they say. Why is it so hard to do?